Why I’m back and where I have been: 2019 Resolutions and Regroupings

Happy First Week of 2019!

The new year has landed and I could not be more excited! Even though I wasn’t consciously wishing 2018 away, a lot went down and I survived a lot. It was a year of change, growth and adaptations and I spent a lot of it waiting to feel like myself again, and you know what? I’m okay with that.

I started 2018 in recovery. I learnt how to pick myself up again in more ways than one. I learnt how important health is, and how important it is to take care of yourself, both physically and mentally. I built myself back up in my career again, made mistakes, stepped out of my comfort zone, won some and lost some. But in the background the one thing I was waiting for my creativity and zest for life to return.

I spent the whole year appreciating creativity from afar, absorbing peoples expressions, energy and artwork like a sponge. It didn’t matter in what format, blogs, YouTube, Netflix, crafts, cooking etc. I consumed but with no output. On a road that usually went both ways for me, it was suddenly just a one way street. These usually came hand in hand for me. Inspiration was normally followed up by innovation, but I just haven’t felt like it. For an entire year. It’s crazy. But it happens.

If I’m honest, I think some of it was down to unrealistic expectations. We are constantly bombarded via social media of examples of how we would like things in our life to look, or perform, or measure (I’m not just talking about bodies here). I think part of 2018 was making peace with the fact that I’m not where I want to be but that is okay too. Instead I need to remind myself to get inspired instead of get comparing.

So I’ve got to start somewhere, and this rather neglected little corner of the internet might just be the first step needed to get back into the swing of things again. Plus with the new year an’ all, it would be rude not to make a fresh start and say hello again right?

So here I am, and that’s were I’ve been. I’m not going to tell you the ins and outs of what I’ve got planned for this platform this year but if you take away one thing I would like you to feel an element of consistency.

As far as resolutions go, I have a few ideas. I’m going to start small. Take things a month at a time. Bite off manageable chunks, and breathe in-between.

Read a book a month.

Listen to and explore music more.

Get outside for a walk at least once a week.

Improve at Yoga.

Embrace the Tarot!

Fine tune my routines (for mornings, shift work, evenings, gym, etc).

Blog, Youtube, Create.

Commit to looking after myself

Treat myself once a day – whether it’s with an amazing cup of coffee, an early night, a swim and sauna, I don’t intend to plan it, just to do it.

Learn a new skill and grow.

Trust me when I say that I, like so many of us, have in past “New Years” set the most unobtainable goals. I have ended up hating myself no less than two weeks in to a new year, where I have inevitably failed and eaten chocolate, missed the gym, not been productive, and end up thinking “what’s the point?”. But honestly, the point is to try, to make and embrace positive change, and to just enjoy this life. A year is a nice rounded way to focus on your time here and set some goals. Truly though, who know what’s going to happen? And isn’t that a beautiful thing in itself?

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